Apologies

I have been reading over the post's of the last 2 months and i would like to let you all know I never ever intended on upsetting anyone and I am deeply sorry if I have done so.
But on a happier note.....
Lani and I have been very busy. I think I am starting to finally get everything into order, my house is starting to look like my house again and Lani is turning into a chatter box. She now says Mum and Dad heap's and has started saying Ssssssssssssss for Uncle Sam and Meh for Auntie Mel. She isn't quite crawling yet it's still the commando/dragging crawl. At the moment I am trying to get her to sit as she is more interested in standing ( Elle must be rubbing off on Lani ). Everything else has been going alright.
Hope your all well and getting ready for Christmas.
Lots of love B
xoxoxo

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Last night I had my little brothers formal. It was heap's of fun! It also means that he has finally finished school. I'm sorry i haven't posted in a while it has just been so busy around here. I never new just how hard it would be.
CONGRATULATIONS JAMES WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU



Kristy, Noah, James, Hayden and Rob
Sam (eldest) James, and Me
Me and Kristy

 

Bad days

I've been feeling a bit low. I feel like I have no support at anymore. I think that still being sick is making it worse. I HATE MEN....... So over the males in my life at the moment.
I have had a really hard weekend. I think Laura leaving made it a bit worse. I want my mum. Something I know is impossible, but i want her to hug me and Lani and tell us both that it will get better, a little easier. I just want her to hold me. I want the love that only your Mother can give you.
There are so many thing's that are scaring me, will I be good enough for Lani? Will she be fine with just me? Am I doing everything wrong? There are so many questions running through my head that I feel lost.
I think I am going to try and save and go away with Lani for a week or two. I just need to get away from all this shit.
So I have Luke's sister's baby shower this afternoon. Hopefully i can stay the whole time. I feel so sick today.
Hugs and kisses
B

 

 

Best Friends

I have had a really rough week. I am really sick with ear infections (yes that's right an infection in BOTH ears) tonsillitis and sinus. My best friend Laura has been down from Coffs Harbour (about 4 1/2 hours drive away from me) and she has been truly amazing. Lani loves her as much as I do I think.... Yesterday Laura took Lani out for a few hours so I could have a break! I love her so much and I am going to be really sad when she goes home...
B