Bad days
I've been feeling a bit low. I feel like I have no support at anymore. I think that still being sick is making it worse. I HATE MEN....... So over the males in my life at the moment.
I have had a really hard weekend. I think Laura leaving made it a bit worse. I want my mum. Something I know is impossible, but i want her to hug me and Lani and tell us both that it will get better, a little easier. I just want her to hold me. I want the love that only your Mother can give you.
There are so many thing's that are scaring me, will I be good enough for Lani? Will she be fine with just me? Am I doing everything wrong? There are so many questions running through my head that I feel lost.
I think I am going to try and save and go away with Lani for a week or two. I just need to get away from all this shit.
So I have Luke's sister's baby shower this afternoon. Hopefully i can stay the whole time. I feel so sick today.
Hugs and kisses
B
3 comments:
I hope you feel better soon. I wish there was some way I could help so that you didn't have to go through this alone. In time things will get easier, and remember to lean on your friends as much as you need to!!
Hugs to both of you :)
After my husband walked out, I had many of these thoughts. A girlfriend told me, "After all, it was he who ultimately couldn't take the stress, not you, so you can face whatever comes, bad days and all."
Best thing I ever heard and I think of it instead.
(((hugs)))
Hang in there, it's hard but not impossible. My son's 11 and still alive and kickingn =0) I know what you mean about missing your mom..it's hard. Even when we know were doing it right, it seems so much better to hear them say it.
Wish I had wise words but we all have to find our own way through those mazes...just remember that you CAN. I know it, now YOU know it.
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