Bad days

I've been feeling a bit low. I feel like I have no support at anymore. I think that still being sick is making it worse. I HATE MEN....... So over the males in my life at the moment.
I have had a really hard weekend. I think Laura leaving made it a bit worse. I want my mum. Something I know is impossible, but i want her to hug me and Lani and tell us both that it will get better, a little easier. I just want her to hold me. I want the love that only your Mother can give you.
There are so many thing's that are scaring me, will I be good enough for Lani? Will she be fine with just me? Am I doing everything wrong? There are so many questions running through my head that I feel lost.
I think I am going to try and save and go away with Lani for a week or two. I just need to get away from all this shit.
So I have Luke's sister's baby shower this afternoon. Hopefully i can stay the whole time. I feel so sick today.
Hugs and kisses
B

 

 

Best Friends

I have had a really rough week. I am really sick with ear infections (yes that's right an infection in BOTH ears) tonsillitis and sinus. My best friend Laura has been down from Coffs Harbour (about 4 1/2 hours drive away from me) and she has been truly amazing. Lani loves her as much as I do I think.... Yesterday Laura took Lani out for a few hours so I could have a break! I love her so much and I am going to be really sad when she goes home...
B